As I Fade Away

it is with heaviness in my heart
that i now allow the pain
to drift afloat on the silence
of the nothingness
that sits between us.
how did i live with this love?
how did i love with such abandon?
to find myself, once again,
reaching out for that
which was not mine to have.
leaving me standing alone
bereft of arms to hold me.
a river's trail to reshape
the path of my landscape.
leaving me in silent wait
feeling nothing,
but my broken heart...
feeling nothing as i fade away...